Contemplation of contentment is one of the hardest thought processes, I believe. When do you know to move forward, when to climb the mountain, and when to stop?
That above was my facebook status today. I posted yesterday that I'm in a weird position of wanting more. Today has been full of thought and some discussion. Today has been full of many conversations with God.
And what I have decided is that I'm not quite ready to decide.
That's okay right?
I've reached a place where I am serious about the the possibility of a decision. Not too vague, right? In all honesty, the decision doesn't matter.
My therapist is worried that if I don't work to do what I need to do that I will crash. What I heard is that I need to work on me. But, I still need to consider my kids and my husband and my home and my work and my wellbeing. I need to consider my motives and ensure that if I make this decision, I do it for the right reasons. I need to be dedicated, as this decision will be costly of both finances and time. And I need to rely on God to truely show me that this is His wish for me. If this is His will, things will happen to make it work and that will ease my reservations and concerns about it.
And now, I just need to pray. Pray and research and determine what I want to do. Pray and research and trust that God will show me what He wants me to do.
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