Well, I did what I said I wanted to do. And, I have succeeded thus far in doing it. The fear I have is that it is going to be a struggle every single day for the rest of my life. I have enough struggles.
Yesterday, as Day One, was easier than I expected. It just took willpower to stick to it when I got discouraged. I had to press on when I wanted to throw in the towel. I kept myself busy all day with coupons yesterday and last night, we basically ran from store to store and took lots of time, so it was late and we were tired by the time we got home. There were brief moments where the temptation to stop was strong and I had to physically and mentally change what I was doing mid-moment to distract myself.
Today is okay. I'm tired and feeling very lazy. I am trying to stay busy with working and talking to friends either online or on the phone. I know that I need to get outside and get busy, but just don't think I can do it today. Maybe tomorrow. Outside there is too much pressure. I can't do it today.
Tonight is what I'm nervous for. I am going to work, driving alone, many opportunities. Must...stay...strong. If you think about it this evening, say a lil' prayer for me.
If you don't already know what I'm doing, I will share soon enough. If you do know what I'm doing, give me all the tips you can. Who knows what will work...?
1 comment:
are you actually quitting smoking?! i will be praying!!!!!
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